Stressed

I just want to stare at the monitor and listen to my kpop playlist. I was so busy this past few days and I feel really stressed. I just want to pause for a moment and stop thinking or feeling anything. I want to be numb even for just a day. I want to give myself a treat. I wanna be alone somewhere in a beach. Might relax the nerves in me. Or maybe in a place where no one knows me and just be myself. I guess I have always been afraid to be alone. Maybe I should get the hell out from my comfort zone? Maybe...but I gotta finish all the things that need to be done first. Maybe after that I could give myself that special treat.

Goodnight.