A Gloomy Morning with Myself

I always try to cheer myself up every time I feel down and discouraged but the more I try to fake my feelings, the more I get frustrated.

Today is just one of those sluggish days. I woke up from a sad dream and as I get back my consciousness, I felt really, really sad for a reason I really don’t know. Last night, before I slept, I got irritated by the thoughts of people I shouldn’t be thinking of and by the things I tried to obliterate from my system. I just don’t have the peace of mind I need now. (sigh!) They say, every time you feel blue, you just have to think of the happy times you had and everything will be fine but I beg to disagree. It makes you even sadder. Well, in my case it does.

So what’s left for me to think? I don’t want to think of the past, I don’t want to get stuck. I hate the present it makes me feel weary. The future, on the other hand, is so uncertain, I don’t want to assume. (sigh again!)

Nothing really make sense now. >_____<

Learn from your mistakes

I was watching a Filipino drama series just a few hours ago when I found a book entitled “If I really wanted to be a great friend I WOULD…” on a table near me. I thought it was a book for kids so I took it and scanned its contents. While I was scanning, a sentence got my full attention so I typed it in my phone and saved it. The sentence goes “Mistakes are the seedlings of future successes.”

I used to live in my past and worry about the mistakes I made in my life. But as I read the sentence, I realized that it wasn’t really my choice of committing those mistakes I made in the past. Nobody wants to make mistakes but everybody makes them. But the best things about them are that we have accepted our mistakes, we were sorry and we are trying to correct every mistake we have made. And most importantly, we have learned from them. But if a person does the same mistake again and again, that’s a different scenario. In my part, I have learned from them and I know I can never commit those mistakes again.