Stranded!

It was just yesterday when I was so happy I spent my day with my friends. We had a great time together. And suddenly today, I feel so sad I can't help but cry my heart out. If the past few days have been great, this day was again terrible and so depressing. I have always been like this - a pessimistic kind of person. I just can't help it! I can see that whenever I'm happy, at the end of my day bad news always comes.

There is so much in me that I wanted to share to someone. Well, my friends are there, I can see but I am afraid they'd get tired of me so I don't want to bother them. I don't want them away from me. Being neglected is the very thing I always fear of. It hurts so much whenever someone special neglects me. That is just so painful it depresses me. But that is not my concern for now. I am so depressed I can feel that I am stranded and I can't find a way to help myself out from this place where I am stuck! I don't know what to do! I just hope and pray that soon enough I will be out from this abyss I am in because there are so many things I want to do with my life and share everything I have with the people I love.

Great writer, Happy reader!

WOW! Amazement is what I am feeling in this very moment. I have just read a 174-page book for 2 DAYS! Isn't it great? It was my first time to read a whole book again for nearly a year now and it is really an accomplishment. And take note! The book that I have just read was very informative and interesting I was not able to get myself out from reading it. I am so proud I have finished reading it before my deadline because someone who has an authority over me ordered me to finish reading it for a week. And I have done it for only 2 days! Really great, right? But even without the deadline, I am sure I could still finish it in 2 days or less, only if I don’t have other stuffs to do.

What amazes me more was the connection he had accomplished between me and his stories. He, indeed, is a great writer. The book was actually more of a tutorial kind of book but instead of making it a pure tutorial book, what he did is that he made a story line between a teacher and a student. It was really great it made me laugh and shed a tear while reading the book. Aside from the fun and entertainment I got, I also learned a lot from him.

I am just so happy I was recommended to read his book.

Thank you reading!

P.S. the name of this brilliant and amazing man is J. David Bocock! J

Every second counts!

Next week would be a very long and tiring week for me and my classmates. We have lots of deadlines to meet, lessons to study and projects to finish. And that means one thing - I need to learn to manage my time well and wisely! OH NO! I need to cancel all the social events that I have already planned. No single second should be wasted.

I can see and feel that my eye bags are getting heavy. It alarms me to bones but I need to stop thinking about it and start planning of how things should be done so everything will turn out good. I just hope no conflicts will be seen as I go through this journey of my study. I only have few weeks left to finish this semester and another semester to finish this school year so I hope everything will be fine with my grades. 2010 is fast approaching and I am, somehow excited about the things that may happen in the coming year. Everything will turn out good, right? FIGHTING! ^_____^

More Realizations

Hello everyone. I really had a terrible evening last night. I was supposed to work but due to the bad mood I had, my mind did not work out well so instead of working for school projects and stuffs, I decided to just go to the room and slept.

Today, I realized one thing. I've been experiencing sudden mood swings for these last few weeks and months. Well, I'm always moody but for the past few weeks, it was worse. I don't know how it really started but I really wanted to change it. I wish I could. but the thing is that whenever something or someone irritates me, it gets up to my head and there! From being so cheerful, my mood gets terrible and oftentimes, due to the great irritation I'm feeling, I curse. This is also one of the things that I really wanted to change. I thought I have already overcome this attitude but I was wrong. It's still in me and I usually curse whenever I get mad or irritated. This needs to be changed because people may be annoyed by hearing my curses. I don't want anyone to dislike me because of my unpleasant attitudes. However, I am very glad that my friends still accept me for being me. I just wish they won't get tire of me. So for them to not stay away from me, I need to change the negative me in me, not only for the people that surround me but most especially for myself.

I know this displeasing attitudes of mine will soon disappear. SOON! And I will really try to overcome them. Thanks for reading. God Bless.

Lesson for the day

This day is really frustrating. I just had a bad encounter with someone and it made me realize one thing – one thing that I really need to change. *sighs* I’ve been so indecisive and impulsive my whole life. I always tend to rush things, which oftentimes lead me to regrets. These attitudes are not bringing me any good so I really want to overcome the two. Well, I was trying but every time I’m in a situation where I need to choose between what can make me happy, I tend to forget that I need to think things first and oftentimes commit mistakes.


I wonder when I will ever overcome these two unpleasant attitudes. Perhaps, most of my friends get irritated with me when I become indecisive. So this time, I’m going to slow things down. I will try to overcome these two displeasing attitudes that I have so there’s nothing I will regret in the end.